My trip away was difficult and seeing my Mum suffering with Alzheimer's and my Dad and sister also suffering with the ramifications this brings was extremely tough and to leave them was heartbreaking. I feel so very torn and scared, it has been a difficult time. On reflection though I need the distraction the dolls bring, whether through creative play, or making things and so for the time being at least will continue to blog until I really know what I want to do. Sometimes it is all too easy to make rash decisions that you might regret. I didn't miss the dolls while I was away and it was almost a chore to actually make the effort to take photos so I could do some posts with them when I returned that it got me thinking WHY do I have them? WHY do I blog? So yes at times I feel like getting rid of the lot and just keeping the four in my header, ....but....and it is a BIG BUT....in reality I just don't think I can really do this - at least not at this stage.
I have been trying to think of ways to re-kindle my excitement, wonder and enjoyment with my dolls, and have come up with several ideas. I thought I would do some posts featuring different themes alongside the usual outing and story posts I do.
The first lot of feature posts will be introducing my boy/male dolls that I have collected over the years. As I do these introduction posts I will gradually link them to my 'Who's Who' page that I started a few years ago, but never really did much with. These feature posts will run on the even days of the month.
Thank you to those who took the time to leave a comment or message me - it was very much appreciated and encouraging to know that others are sharing my enjoyment of dolls in all shapes and forms. There are still some lovely people out there!
Thanks to my husband last night making a chance comment about a how much Wren looked like Velma from Scooby Do in her jacket.... I have been inspired! Story to come.
Thanks to my husband last night making a chance comment about a how much Wren looked like Velma from Scooby Do in her jacket.... I have been inspired! Story to come.
It is completely understandable - you find comfort in different things at various times in life and sometimes something which brought immense comfort can be almost meaningless for a while in the face of stiff emotional trauma - that is possibly why it felt 'almost a chore' to do doll blog posts - everything is a big effort when you're having a hard time. Of course you're torn and scared about your mum and your location so far from her most of the time, it is really tough living so far away. There is no time pressure on you to make any decisions about what to keep or sell of your doll collection, as you say it isn't a great idea to make a hasty decision unless absolutely necessary and in time you'll have worked through some of the immediate anguish and might have a better idea of what to do with your dolls.
ReplyDeleteI like the idea of your feature posts when you have the time and inclination to post them - there is no pressure from any of your blog readers for you to churn posts out on a timetable - that would immediately take the pleasure out of blogging completely for most of us who do this on the fringes of our spare time as a hobby for enjoyment, so I for one will not be expecting posts on even days of the month!
You've inspired a blog idea for me about collecting - something that has been mulling over in my mind for months. It won't be entirely doll related either and hopefully I'll find the time to write it in the next few days.
x
I love all of your plans for the blog. I think a lot of people get to a point where they want to take a break. Having a blog really is a big commitment and sucks time away from doing other things. If it's going to take that much time, it should be fun! :) Hopefully these new ideas will rekindle some of that joy you originally had with all of your dolls. And if not, it's ok to move on as well. :) Or at least take a break. :)
ReplyDeleteHoping your Dad and sis are able to find some respite for caring for your Mum. Thanks for sharing your thoughts, sometimes it feels good to get it out.
Hugs-Farrah
I'm very sorry for your mother having Alzheimer and I feel for your father and sister and the stress that comes with caring for her. And for you it must be heartbreaking to be living so very far away and unable to care for your mother and to share the burden with your father and sister.
ReplyDeleteI would not make hasty decisions right now but give it all some time.
Blogging should be fun and not another chore and you should do it when you feel like it and it should never become an obligation.
And sometimes you have to accept that things are just not possible for very practical reasons even though you would like for things to be different. And yes, that will make you understandably sad.
Take care,
Linda